June Premonitions: Through the Chaos

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[00:00:30] Premonitions for the month of June I serve as your humble and oh so gracious host, Brice Izyah And I thank you so much for tuning in to this month's Premonitions If you could be so kind to ensure you are subscribed to the Purple Pants Podcast We are available on Apple Podcasts, Google Podcasts, Spotify Wherever you find podcasts, the Purple Pants Podcast awaits for you to subscribe And as always with your Premonitions You can watch this audio podcast on video

[00:01:00] Head over to the Brice Isaiah YouTube channel Click subscribe, give this video a thumbs up Let us know in the comments what you think about this spiritual forecast For the month of June Gary, DeAndre and myself are back And we're reminding you to be who you are Sometimes you show up for people And you expect them to show up how you want them to show up And sometimes we have to understand that people aren't going to be there for us

[00:01:29] And we have to use our discernment We are the energy We're the mystique We're the chaotic control So this and so much more Let's get into this month's Premonitions Purple Pants Premonitions

[00:01:51] And we are back for the month of June For your Purple Pants Premonitions Happy Pride

[00:02:20] We're so excited to be here We can't have the Premonitions without my co-host Mr. Gary DeAndre Gary, welcome back to the podcast What is, what's the tea over there? Baby, it's Pride Month, okay? That's why I showed up today in glasses Because I just got, I just got home like less than 12 hours ago Had an event, okay? She was working, she's a working mommy and everything But Pride Month is giving, she's giving

[00:02:49] She's giving something, okay? We are still figuring it out But I am here, I am queer And I am thankful to be doing the things with you, boo How about you? Yes, I am, you know May came on in Rolled on in Was hectic, chaotic And June has been just tiptoeing in And I've been able to enjoy some solace And just time to myself In which I absolutely love

[00:03:16] It makes me feel like I'm never returning outside again But I'm doing well Refreshed and just enjoying my time, you know? Days of like nothing to do outside of work That I just love So I've been enjoying June thus far Amen Listen, let me make sure I give you your applause And your flowers, okay? Because you definitely was out there Doing the things and seeing the people And you are just magic

[00:03:46] And thank you for all of what you've done For the Survivor community And just for the people that love the show And love, you know, the work that you do And connecting all the people You are amazing And I hope that you are truly enjoying This time to yourself Because on top of that Wasn't you just honored With like the Philly gay black Prior to what happened So like, let's be real about it Like you're out here doing the things So you deserve a moment of rest Okay, listen Thank you Pulled it from Pulled it from The library Okay

[00:04:16] I was honored Last month For the Philly black gay pride As one of 250 LGBTQ plus people of color Change makers So yes, that was Unexpected and beautiful And so yeah, you know I'm living in I've got a room full of flowers And I'm receiving it Amen You deserve that You deserve that 100% Thank you Thank you

[00:04:45] What have you been doing? We know Last we talked May was a A roar for you as well What's How was the end of May? And we're in June What is that giving for you? Honey I was about to say How much time do we have, honey? Let us just say That May Was I've been saying Like all year Has been a roller coaster But that was actually The most roller coastery Roller coaster That I think that I've been on Like best far

[00:05:13] And even like the stats From my little Like mood tracker That I've Take for the last Like year or whatever Because last year's May She was crazy She was crazy This one wasn't as crazy But she was still crazy And It feels like It started off With the traveling And I had like A work Thing In New Orleans At the very top of the month And I haven't traveled Since my birthday Last year So that was very disorienting Especially like I had to be at work Like actual work And I was like Oh my god Like

[00:05:43] Why am I up At 7 o'clock in the morning Being in front of people Like Hi Lost the whole phone In New Orleans Child Making out with men In the street On Bourbon Street It was Yeah Right Okay So that was how May started Okay And then it was just like Work You know People Things happening All over the place Family stuff Going on in the background That I haven't really discussed And then I had a Death in the family Last week So that's been Thank you so much

[00:06:12] And thank you to everybody That's like Reached out about My cousin And you know That whole process Has been very interesting Because you see I'm still here In New York And the funeral is today But mama had to work And my cousin Was very very supportive Of everything that I do So I know that She would want me To be doing what I'm doing You know what I mean So that was a really Crappy way to end The month of May You know what I'm saying And then Moving into June I feel like What I'm trying to focus on Is like

[00:06:42] The joy spot That I can find In every day You know what I mean Because there's so many things That are like going on And my head has been So scattered But it's like If I can just think about Something that happened Every day That like Brought me Brought a smile to my face You know what I mean Brought a little like Warmth to my heart That's what I've been Trying to focus on For the last like Couple of days Because these first Couple days Miss June She Like slap And I'm like Girl Like oh my god Like it's only

[00:07:11] My third day out here Girl Why we doing all this But I've been trying To look at it In that way And I also think For me Because last year June I don't even know If we recorded If we recorded Listen I was barely there Okay You know So In you know In relationship To This one feels More Like Alright Diva We're doing things Okay

[00:07:41] Tata's up Smile on girl And give it to him Diva And that's kind of Like where I'm at Checking in like today Okay Listen I have no shame Yes Listen I mean If any of you guys Follow Gary on TikTok or Instagram You know Miss Mama's Been Giving us Titty Tuesdays Miss Mama's Been in See through Little I scroll

[00:08:11] And I'm like Is this X What Okay And not X We don't call it It's Twitter baby Okay It's just Twitter And you know what It's not But I gotta always Wake it up on you girl Don't ever expect me To be out No You are going to get A little ta-ta If I'm feeling Tiddalicious Listen Why not I love it I love The celebration Of body Right Cause I think Sometimes like As we get older Our body changes And like

[00:08:41] We kind of Mourn Our old body And in Mourning Our old body Sometimes I feel like We don't celebrate Our new body Or like the body That we are currently In now And so I love it And I always Say to you Like you know My body Like you know I'm a chameleon My body changes as well I go through highs I go through lows And right now You know I'm Right now I'm giving a little Rasputia But it's okay

[00:09:10] Don't even Don't even Don't even But it's okay Cause I got plenty Of Norbids That's all over This Rasputia You funny Let me actually Tell you a story Because I really Appreciate you Saying that Because That is actually Part of like What this first Like couple of days Of like the month Has been So I know I didn't Gain weight I know nobody Nobody got to address it I know I'm in this Body every day Right And it has been Growing At like

[00:09:40] A really quick rate For some reason Come to find out It's my Mental health Medication You know Mental health Medication Make you gain weight And stuff like that But This week I finally decided To go to the doctor I've been avoiding The doctor I used to be I'm a hyper contract I've been there At least three times a year I haven't seen that man Since September of 2024 So I had two appointments This week One was with my dermatologist Shout out to Dr. Vinny Because Listen We used to be Crying about the skin

[00:10:09] Okay And he looked at my skin And he was just like This brings me So much joy Because I remember There was a time Where you weren't living You know what I mean There was a time Where you were literally Like in pain Every single day In and out In this office Every two weeks And now I see him If twice a year You know what I mean So that's the energy I have on Monday And then on Tuesday I go to my PCP And of course I know What I feel like But I don't know What the scale says Because I've been avoiding it And I got on there And I was like

[00:10:39] And the nurse practitioner You know Is it happy weight? I was like No No girl It's not happy weight She was working at home And she worked two jobs But then Old boy comes to the office And I'm obviously Telling him about What's going on And you know How I'm feeling Discomfort In the body And you know He's like Yeah it could be Your medication He's like So we need to Deporkify I was like Deporkify Pardon? Pardon?

[00:11:09] Gagged me fiercely Because my thing is I know what I feel like I know what it gives I'm in it every day But I've been trying My best to like Embrace it Through its seasons You know what I'm saying? And the new medication Has made things You know A little crazy for me But I'm still trying My best to Accept it And it's like I'll tell it to you Very very honestly And to y'all out there It was like When I went into Pride Month I was excited to You know what I'm saying Be out Like okay Like whatever

[00:11:39] But it was like After he made that comment It felt like It sucked all Of the confidence And the Like the The positivity And it went back To like the body dysmorphia You know what I mean? And just like The I miss when I was 130 pounds Or 150 pounds But I'm like Were you at your Most healthy space? And that was good For your body So I was like Trying to Appreciate it along the way But that It was so bad I didn't realize How much that triggered me I was in therapy At 7.30 On Thursday And all of a sudden

[00:12:08] I'm telling her You know about And burst out Into like Boohoo tears Because it It like stung You know what I'm saying? But it's like What I have been trying to do And it's crazy That I had to go through that You know And people especially I'm gonna keep it a stack Especially these white men Okay Think that they can say And do anything And it's cute Or it's cool Or it's acceptable Definitely called in I got a new PCP The next day Cause I'm like I shouldn't have to feel That way about myself Every time that I see you

[00:12:38] Based off of A passive comment That you've made You feel what I'm saying? And now it's been Kind of like Okay Like I get it I know where we're at I know how to tackle it But at the same time I gotta love it In this stage And through whatever Cause it's kept me this long And sometimes I gotta wake it up To remind myself That I can wake it up You feel what I'm saying? Yes No So yeah I just had to share that Cause like that really That is something That has been like A big rock As we used to say In education

[00:13:08] For me this week So I really appreciate You pointing that out Yes of course That's what we're here for It's funny Because it reminded me Of a story Very different But Like PCPs And like Sometimes I feel like You know The doctors They Like I don't know I feel like Going to the First of all It's Pride Month So everyone should be Going to see their doctor Everyone should be Getting tested If you are And again Specifically If you are

[00:13:37] A gay man of color You need to be on prep Cause there just Is no excuse And so like You know I'm on prep And every three months I have to go Get my blood drawn And I get like You know A band of tests And so my PCP Is a black lesbian I love her Like you know It's like we speak The same language And I think in May I was running around So much That like I was like Oh shoot Like my prep Is getting low I need to

[00:14:06] Make an appointment And so I made an appointment It's kind of a funny story I made an appointment And they're like Your regular Doctor isn't there But you This doctor Is available I'm like Whatever I need to get in And so It's a young doctor You know He's very nice And like you know He's asking me Like all of the questions Of the questions And so I'm like Bitch I'm just I'm here to get my medication Take my blood Take my urine Take my weight Do what you need to do

[00:14:37] And so he's like We haven't done like A cotton swab In like six months I'm like Okay but you You take my blood And you take my urine You should know And so he's like Yeah I really recommend That You get A cotton swab Of your throat And your anal cavity Just like you know And first of all I'm all for preventative So like yes But I also like In my mind Right Was like I work

[00:15:06] For Adjacent to an insurance company And so like I feel like sometimes Like every three months When I get my blood And everything done Bitch I get a bill And so In my mind I'm like Well I ain't say I had anything Or anything So why do we need But anyway I said sure Like Sure And so he's like He like gives me The cotton swabs And he's like You can go into the bathroom I said oh no no no no no I said Are you the main por favor Ah

[00:15:36] Okay Right Pull my Pull my pants down And bent right over And said You think we need to do this Right Okay Let's do it then baby My dream was so funny Because When I like Pull my pants down I think he was like shocked Because I was Most people maybe don't Like I'm like You saying we need to do this Let's do it Mind you So I literally Pull my pants down And he's like You're so smooth

[00:16:02] Well ma'am I am a lady Okay And so That just I don't know That just reminded me Of that story Which I thought was so funny And of course Like I get my results Negative But like Then I get my bill And it's $80 more Like I'm just like Oh yeah These health plans They They crack me up But

[00:16:32] It's June Nevertheless No matter how much It costs Make sure you are Taking care of yourself Making sure you're Getting tested regularly Make sure And Make sure you're Asking partners Questions Because I feel like Sometimes in this culture You know The gays just love To lay down And it ain't Ain't nothing wrong With that If that Do whatever But like Have a conversation Have some questions Yeah If they You know Because like Honestly The setup always Don't be given that A lot of times

[00:17:02] With the girls You feel what I'm saying Is sometimes very much And we go in And you know Doing the thing Or you know It's all the tension That we have From being mutuals On Twitter For seven years So we feel like We know each other And you know We do a little Do-do-do-do-do Or whatever But sometimes People are not Having those conversations Because they're not Having those conversations With themselves You know what I mean And that boils down to Because you know A lot of the times We don't think about The long-term effects Of things that we're doing In the very like

[00:17:31] Moment or whatever And I don't know Personally for me That's why I've been Kind of like At the crib Like in my little Princess Peach Castle Or what have you For like the last Like months A couple of months Or whatever Because I'm just like You got to talk to people And people don't be Wanting to talk And then It's just Make sure that Whatever you are doing You are taking care of you And also If you can take care Of somebody else In the You know At the same time Then like Do what you do But it's all about Just like As long as you are Reminding yourself That like

[00:18:01] You are You and you're not Getting anyone else In the situation That put them into danger You know what I mean Yeah Because karma is real It is And you can't trust These men So like Yes It ain't nothing about them It's more about True Protect yourself Know your status And you know Move it on from there And so Yes Yes You know Stay on these men's necks Y'all Stay on these men's necks I will always say that Because you got to be On my neck sometime

[00:18:30] Okay I know how I get down But you got to be Listen Take care of you divas Whatever that means For everybody out there To the girls The dolls Everyone in between Like please Just make sure That you are Enjoying yourself This pride month I was about to say The Knicks up too Okay You know I'm like I don't know nothing About the sports ball But I do know that Okay We do Yeah This summer is about to be Legendary Let's just say That Fingers crossed

[00:19:01] Even aside from them Yes It's about to be a Legendary summer But go ahead I'm sorry Sehr gut Sehr gut Sehr gut Sehr gut Wieso Steuer ist sehr gut Das sagen ganz viele Cool Wer sagt das Stiftung Warentest Computerbild Focus Money Chip Finanztip Such dir was aus Mega Aber das ist doch Bestimmt kompliziert Nö Einfach Foto von der Lohnsteuerbescheinigung Machen und fertig Klingt sehr gut Ist sehr gut Hol dir dein Geld zurück Mit Visum Steuer

[00:19:30] I was just saying Another theme that Has been in my spirit In this month of June As I've been able to Kind of like take a beat And just do the things That I need to do for myself It reminds me that Or I should just say this In general to people Right Where I think that And if you're listening

[00:19:59] To this Shout out to you And I think like You know we all are We similar And so I'm a I'm a Giving Giving Giving Giving Giving Giving Giving Giving Giving Giving I like you know I give up myself And that's a part of Who I am Right Like that's just like The fiber in my being But And I guess like These past Week to weeks

[00:20:29] As I've been able to Kind of like sit And gather my life I can reflect On The people that actually Like the people That are in our lives And the people that Are Our family Are our friends Or our loved ones And When you just have That moment Of Sitting Or like you know For the past three weeks I've been running around Doing this Doing that Doing this Doing that Doing this And I'm like Well bitch What did I do for myself Right And

[00:20:58] In that moment I like Realize and see Like Oh the way I show up For people They don't show up For me like that Right And there's nothing Wrong with that But like It does make me Wonder Or it makes me feel like Maybe I really need To pull back And again It's no No shade No pee No nothing But it's more like I'm doing all of this That I think people

[00:21:28] That know me Have Become accustomed Or become very comfortable With Oh Bryce does this Bryce gonna do that Bryce do this Oh we got that Bryce did that Like you know And like when I like Take a second back Well I'm like Well what do you do For Bryce Right Like you know Like I'm sitting In this house With my refrigerator With two bottles Of water And a pickle Like anybody Bringing me something Like you know And so like I just And again It's not anything

[00:21:58] On anybody It's more on me Where it's like I just give And like I just think Maybe I just need To pull back On that giving And give to myself And like You know I can't make this I can't do that I can't do that Like I'm gonna just Reserve that time For myself And so that's really In this time That I've had to sit And like Enjoy myself I just Really Can reflect

[00:22:27] On how much I'm doing for others And And I love to do it Like you know But I also realize Like sometimes It gets to a point Where it's like Yeah you love to do it Of who you are But like When does it cross The threshold Of Taking advantage Or doing too much Doing too much Or like you know I'm constantly Putting Into other Penny jars And ain't no pennies Kind of coming Into my jar

[00:22:56] And Again It really just Makes me reflect And maybe Like I need to sit down I need to No I hear you I agree with you I think What you are Saying here Is like The classic Case of like As soon as you Remove The connection You start Gaining your Power back You start Gaining your Energy back And also Realizing what People are Willing to give To you And meeting Them where They are Because What I've Always said Is like I can't expect Me out of

[00:23:26] Someone else Because they're Not me Right And a lot Of the Times We get Caught up In thinking That people Will do Us The way That we Do them When that's Not always The case But also Remembering That like Everybody has Their different Way of Showing up And it's Like some People need A little bit More Some people Need a little Bit less Some people Are not Even willing To communicate About it And it's Just a standard But I think That you get And it sounds Like you're In this time Of just being Like who Actually

[00:23:55] Does what I do for Them from Their side Of the pond And I see That And I receive That and Those are the Relationships That you keep Closest to Because they are The ones that Show up the way That you need And then I Think I So listen It's like We giving you A little pip Okay your little Performance improvement Plan Okay your little Pink slip And it's like Is you getting Renewed for season Eight Okay Or are you Going to be Demoted to Not a bit You're going to Demoted to Friend of I'm serious Okay Like baby The role has

[00:24:25] Shifted a little Bit Is 2026 You know what I mean Same company Different vibe All right So we have to Move a specific Type of way And if you're Not with the Program That is perfectly Fine I have no Disrespect towards It But I'm also Not about to Continue to Put dollars In your pocket In the same Way Because you're Not doing Your job Okay The job That you Signed up For Or You unwillingly Signed up For And now We both Realize That like You didn't Want to be Here for real And like

[00:24:55] I'm not Holding Myself Back For Nothing I actually Just had This conversation At the Like earlier This month Like I don't Need people That are Lukewarm On me In my life And that's How To sound Selfish Or what Happened But it's Like if You're Lukewarm On me That means Like You are Not giving Me the Space To be A whole Person You're Not giving Me the Space To be Able To experience The waves The seasons

[00:25:25] The journeys Of life With you And the Evolution That comes Along with That As well As the Communication That goes Along With that You know With that Growth With that Change With that Time Passing And we Can have Disagreements We can Have Difference Of Opinions But it Should always Come back To the idea Of love And Communicating About it And understanding Each Person's Point of View Without You know Not even Frustration But like Holding that Grudge And a lot Of times People

[00:25:54] Don't do The Well this Is where I'm Checking In from From my Side Until They're Kind of Like Up against The wall And it's Like you Were feeling All this About me But you Didn't Let me Know Because you Also should Know that I'm Somebody That you Can Bring it To Because I Would Bring it To you As well But I'm Very much In a Season If you're Ify You know Or you're Like you Know Just not Giving the Quality Amount of Love that I know That I Give to You Then like What are We doing Because

[00:26:24] You are Basically using My light To your Benefit Without doing Anything to Keep the Lights on Okay So what Is we Really doing And like That is Something that I feel like I have Learned Through this Time Especially These last Couple of Months Is like My light Is undeniable When I Show up Somewhere Baby People are Going to Be looking People are Going to Be feeling It Like it's It's no T It's just It's That's the Truth Yeah Facts are Facts America

[00:26:54] Because I've Been in this Body for a Long time And it's Always been That way But I Didn't Understand It Then I Didn't Tend To it I Didn't You know Give It life I didn't Speak To it In the Same Way That I Speak To it Now And when You are In that Constant Space Of thinking About that And you As someone Who is Out and About Okay Every week Diva New city New folks Like It's undeniable With people That are

[00:27:24] Connected To their Freedom Because that's Really what it Boils down to It's a sense Of freedom It's a sense Of knowing Self And also Like Understanding That it Comes from A place Of love Never A place Of like Trying to Be Because That's Just not How we Think And everybody Don't Live like That So for Me It's Like If I'm Turning It on And you Know I Listen I Didn't Paid The bill Early This month Okay Like I showed Up Like And if You can't Get into That And you Can't hold Space for

[00:27:53] The whirlwind That is me Because I'm I'm gonna Mess up I'm gonna Do some Crazy stuff I'm gonna Have to Go through Some stuff That's just What my Life is It's always Been this But baby I always Come back Better than Before Okay Ten times Better Okay And it's Just like If you Don't Want to Be there For that Journey Don't Want to Be there For that Ride Baby I'm not Dragging Nobody With me Nowhere No more Cause I Did that For a long Time And it's Like I'll say It like This But it's A blessing At the Same time It's like How long Have I Been pushing

[00:28:23] My blessings Away How long Have I been Pushing My abundance Away Because I'm Keeping energy Around me That is making Me not think That I'm ready To be able To receive it So moving With that Energy in the Month of June Very Be who you Are for your Pride This is why We do what We do This is why We do what We do And some Girls will get Threatened by it When there's Really nothing To be Threatened by Because maybe There's room For everybody

[00:28:52] Unless you A lame bitch You know what I'm saying Like that's another Story Like if you Would like You can be Whatever over there Okay No disrespect But like Me and my people Me and my tribe Me and my Me and my folk We about to eat We about to slay We about to do The damn thing And call each other Out and build Each other up On the journey And I feel like That is what This month is about Especially like As we have gotten Past the little Full moon in Sagittarius A couple of weeks Ago That was what

[00:29:22] Last Sunday Excuse me We got through The full moon In Sagittarius We have a new Moon in Gemini Coming up We have the Summer solstice Taking place When the Seasons go From Gemini To Cancer And then Right And I'm pretty sure We have like An actual full moon This month Because we didn't Have one Like already in June So that means It would be Probably Capricorn At this point I don't know When it is Don't ask me I haven't looked It up yet But I do know That the new Moon in Gemini I think it's Supposed to be Next week In 616 If I'm not Mistaken

[00:29:53] So yeah It's going to be A very interesting Time Very chatty Have you been Finding yourself Running your gap Because I know I've been Talk talk talk Talking a lot Everybody want to Talk about something I've been Talking in my head Okay Just you know Just rambling on So Yeah Because I've Just been to Myself But yes I mean You know The conversation Never stops So At least you have One Because I read I don't remember The percentage I remember

[00:30:23] It was pretty high Like 45 or 50% Of people don't Have anything Going on in Their brains Like no self Talk And I'm like It's just Quiet all day It's just air I was like Oh my god How Like How How babes What are you Talking about Like that's how Shocked I am Okay Y'all get a face You know I don't give an Eye reveal ever For real That's how I was like What Because it'd be A whole Symphony And then some Up in here Okay There are voices

[00:30:52] There are accents Okay There's things Everywhere Listen I've been here Keen sometimes So Listen Shout out to my There's things Going on upstairs Girlies Because that's Very much Gemini energy Shadow and light Knowing yourself Being able To communicate Yourself All of like Those Components And in tarot Gemini is Represented in The lover's card Because you know Gemini is the Twins And I think

[00:31:22] That this season Is really about Like loving Yourself Like you know Both aspects Of you Because like We all know That we have Like our Forward facing You know what I'm Saying persona And then we have Whatever is like Going on like Behind there And it's just Like having Space for both Loving both And also like Allowing other People to love Both sides You know what I Mean This message Around like Authenticity Has been coming Up for me a lot And I just Have to say Like that is A message That I've Heard At various Stages of my Life

[00:31:51] But not until Maybe like The last two Years regarding The impact Of authenticity It Like hearing It now Actually just Like fuels me Instead of Feels like People are Telling me That in Order to Make me Feel like They have My number You know What I'm Saying Right Which is How I've Operated for Like decades At this point But it's Like actually Receiving like Your authenticity Is inspiring The way that You show up As like You Like in Doing you Like makes Me want to Do me

[00:32:21] Even more And I'm Like I love It But I'm Like and I'm Also like It took Work to Get here You know What I mean A lot of Work to Get here And a lot Of fighting To be Me To get Here What are You telling But when You say Authenticity Sometimes This again Random Stuff That you say Triggers other Stuff in my Head And this is Something I Had wanted

[00:32:51] To say for Such a long Time Like that Something I've Always struggled With in my Adult life And I think Just more Recently I've Just come to The conclusion Like bitch I'm okay With it I'm Not A group Girly Right Like I Don't get me Wrong like Sure I love To be a group With people But I'm not A group Girly When I'm With my Friends I like One On one Interactions Like I

[00:33:20] Like I Like to Be I don't Like Oh let Me bring So and So let Me and Like it Like And it's Taken the Longest Time for Me to Actually like Verbalize That like I Think I've Always knew It but Like verbalize It to other People like The other day I said To my Cousin like Hey you Want to go Grab something To eat Because it Was like Yeah Then later My cousin Was like Oh I Forgot Like I'm

[00:33:50] Doing something With whatever I said Okay no Words Like we'll Reschedule And then Later on My cousin Was like You want To come With us No thank You And again I love His friend But like You know Like that Just I just I don't Know And like Sometimes I feel Like I'm Constantly Being put In these Situations Where I have to Be in Amongst Groups And mind And Sure I Might love The people That are Adjacent But they're Not really

[00:34:20] My people And like It is Hard Sometimes For like My family And my Friends To understand Like I Just want A one On one Connection Like I Just want To like Let's just Go get Tocos Bitch Let's Come to My house And sit On your Phone And scroll Like I Just Again Because We are The light Right Like And when We invite Other people Or like You go Somewhere And somebody Like oh I told This person That person This person

[00:34:50] It's like Now you Have to You gotta You have To do And it's Like I Don't want All of that I don't Want Bitch It's not a Performance I just I just Want to Show up Yeah I'm Not here To perform And then I also Gotta be Like who Am I Sensing out What are You giving Like what's Your vibe Where are You checking In from Today And I Also have To make Sure that I'm checking In from The place That I Can show Up And actually Not be A curmudgeon Or stank Bitch Because I Could be Giving that And now That I Gotta come

[00:35:20] Sit with You That I Wasn't Planning To do Now I Really Got an Attitude So I'm Actually Gonna stay Home Okay And then What again Because like I said It's only Been two Weeks But like The more And more I sit With myself And the more And more And then Sometimes When I Get invited To these Places Then it's Like oh I got it Or people Are all Because Because When I Get invited To things That have Multiple people That I Didn't know Was gonna Be there Now I Gotta be There

[00:35:49] Right Like And then I'm just Chilling I'm You know I'm Chilling I'm Just You know Hey Then it's Like are You okay What's wrong With you Oh I Didn't show Up How you Wanted me To show Up Well that's Because bitch What I Showed up To Isn't what I thought I was Gonna show Up to And then I Realize Like Bitch When I Get overstimulated I get Mean Yeah You showed That Yes Like Yes And don't Get a drink In me Child

[00:36:19] Cause that'll Really turn It up In here I'm just Keeping it Honest here Keeping us Honest But it's Like Like When I'm Over stimulated Like and Again I could Just be Sitting there Like this And like We just Said two Seconds Ago I could Be Sitting There Like this But baby My mind Is All over Like And like To deal With these Energies To show Up and be Like Like

[00:36:50] Yeah Sometimes I do Get nasty And I've Always Like I don't Know why Like But I'm Over stimulated And that's How it shows up For me Sometimes When I get Over stimulated I get Mean Yes And then Think about Like the factors Like have I Eaten today What else Has happened Today Do I have To use The bathroom Like my Mama called Me with Some bullshit Earlier today And now Here I am Being in Front of y'all Trying to be Nice Because I got Dragged here Outside of My own Decision And volition And like Girl

[00:37:20] I don't need To be here That's why That is exactly Why my Black ass Has been In this House Because I was Like my Attitude is Not giving What I Wanted to Give First and Foremost You trying To drag me Outside In what Was the cold Or whatever And like Now you Have a You have A party You want Me to Come to A party To come Spend time With you Girl No I'm not Doing that I was Listen Ever Ever since I was Maybe In my Early 20s When I Had my First Sit down Spiritual

[00:37:49] Experience That man Told me Never go Into crowds Or begrudging People Because that Energy Has harmed To you This was 2013 Ever since Then I don't Do that When I Go out Of my Way To be In that Type of Energy It's Because I Love the Person That I Am Coming To do It For And I Only Do It Maybe It Just Doesn't Work For Me And I Think This Is This Time Of Yes We

[00:38:19] Have to Show up And be Good Villagers For People We Have to Make Sacrifices 100% But The Balance Between That And also Being able To Maintain Connection In a Way That Fits For The Both Of Us Is One Of The Most Important Things And That So They're Finding Things To Do People

[00:38:49] To Be Around That Don't Have Them Thinking About Those Things Or Bringing Up This Feeling Of Like Oh Because I'm Doing This It Erases All The Other Stuff That I Think Is Going On And Makes Me Feel Like I'm Doing Something When It's Like Baby You're Just Literally Just Painting Or Putting A Band-Aid On Top Of A Band-Aid That's Not Going To Heal It Any Faster You Know What I Mean So To Each Their Own But I'm Also Like We Have To

[00:39:19] Know That If It's Not Good For Us We Can't Continue To Force Ourselves Because It's Like Do You Want My Negative Vibes That I'm Radiating Negative Energy Into The Room Right Now Deep Down From My Soul And That's Not Good For Nobody Because I Will Turn Into Jean Grey In This Mother Okay And Nobody Needs That So How Do We Make Sure That We Do Not Do That This Month Of June Is The Question Okay Because Listen

[00:39:48] People Going Try It Especially For My Alphabet Mafia Girlies Like They Are Trying To Take Everything From They Just Shut Down All The Black Gay Spots In New York They Just Close For West Child Philadelphia Doesn't Have Any Black Gay Spots And Child You Go To The Gay Burhood It's Not Even The Gay Burhood No More It's Just Straighter Hood Girl Or Don't Even Listen Because I Was About To Say I

[00:40:24] Was Start Off This Is My Add This Is Like My Little Address Like This Is A Time To Really Be It's A Time To Truly Be And Like We've Always Been You Know What I'm Saying Because We Had To Fight To Do Such But Like This Is

[00:40:55] And If You Know A Leo Honey You Know A Leo Very Powerful When They Show Up You Know They Show Up Moving Around Yip Yip Yapping Fun Energy Love Me

[00:41:25] Always Committed To That Belief That's Just How Life Is Unfortunately I've Come To Learn That Is Just Some People's Role In Society During This Lifetime You Know What I Mean And It's Sometimes The Choices They Decide To Make Sometimes It's Choices They Decide To Avoid So If You Are In This Season Right Now Where You're Just Like I Just Want To Be The Highest Version Of Me Then Do That Whatever That Means You're Still Alive You Still Have Breath People And I'm Not Even To Make It Funny But Their People Are Dying Kim Like

[00:41:54] Seriously Like And Every Day That You Have An Opportunity Not To Be All Preaching And Shit But It's Like Everything You Have Opportunity To Try That's All That

[00:42:34] Actualize Parts Of Themselves That They Wish That They Couldn't And Sometimes That's A trigger For The Positive Sometimes That's A trigger That Brings Up A lot Of Trauma But It's About You Knowing What You Deserve And Where Have You Been Complicated In Playing A role That You Are Overly Qualified For At This Point Like That's You Don't That You It's Above Me Now It's Above You Now So Going Into This Month Of June Be Who

[00:43:04] You Are Literally For Your Pride And Just Commit To Being And Also While You Are Let Us Know What That Means Let Us Know Where That's Showing Up For You Let Us Know What That Is What Allows Us It's The Truth Like You Have To Let Us Know Where You're Checking In From Because What Are We Doing If We're Not Having Those Conversations And Your Lesson Your Blessing Could Be What I Need To

[00:43:34] Take Me And If That Is Something That You Can Pass On Listen That's Free Blessings Free Abundance You Love The Way That You Know How To Fiercely Love And Life Will Be Not The Best All The Time But There Are Moments Where You Can Enjoy It You Know And I Just Really Want Us To

[00:44:05] Be Ourselves And Truly Lean Into That I Think You Can Identify As This Like As Another Black Gay Like I Was Before I Get Into The Cards I Was There Was Some Post On Twitter Where It Basically Like Tell You Coming Out Story And Mine Is Very Traumatic Honestly Let's Just Say It Involves Guns And Fighting And Yelling In Email And Black Eyes Child It's A lot So When I Think About

[00:44:34] That Was Maybe 25 Years Ago At This Point And Where I Am Now Where I Get To Shake My To Talks On The Internet My Parents Be Like My Dad Has Sent Me Instagram Post To Mom Before What Is This Sir Why Are You Worried Mind Your Business Why Are You On My Page Why Are You Sending Me My Links About Me To Me Bitch I Created It

[00:45:18] What For So It Is Pride Month Diva It Is A Blessing To Be Here Thank You So Much For The Opportunity To Be Able To Do To Work Alongside Bryson Whoever Needs To

[00:45:49] crazy story. As I'm wrapping up at that event last night, I turn around. Why does the person that's reading behind me have my deck sitting right on top? I'm tearing up behind these glasses, honestly. Gagged me so deep. And shout out to Atlas. They were like, yeah, I love using this deck. They were like, this is you? I'm like, yeah, that's me.

[00:46:19] I did that. I'm sorry. It's just like, honestly, dog. That is so crazy. It's so crazy. Thank you so much for always being supportive.

[00:46:49] It's so wild having that happen. Come on now, Vanna White. Vanna Black. Okay. It's so crazy. Like, having that experience. You can only imagine what that's like. It's like, turn around and be like, oh my God, like, somebody is using your shit. Like, in front of you. This is not somebody you know. This ain't somebody you sit in a deck to. Like, no. This is crazy to me.

[00:47:18] The crazier part of it is that my love, my boo-boo, it's what you created it for. Right? Like, that's the purpose of it. Right? Right? So it's like, the question is, when are you going to believe that? Yeah, that's so true. That's what it's for, my love. Yeah, that's why it was made. That's why it was made. That's why the concept came to, you know, for these moments. To be read at, like, it's literally, like, made for this. Yeah.

[00:47:49] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So, like. And again, then it asks, the question is, well, what's next? Okay? Like, I'm on. Yeah. Yeah, that's what I'm just saying. Have these moments of, yes, you at an event, somebody using your shit. And it's like, yes, that's what we created it for. But my mom, clock in, what's next, my love? You know, I got visions and stuff. You know, I got visions and stuff. But I'm moving accordingly with time. Because I feel like I have

[00:48:19] so many things going on right now. And I'm just trying to make sure that I have space to do it all and actually show up. Because I think the horoscope that I have for the month was like, yeah, make sure that you don't overload your plate because you're really good at doing that. And that is so true. So, I got to get, I got to get me in order first and make sure that I have the space to do because I know that life is really the beginning. There's more coming. Let's just not use that as an excuse because my love, every month is always going to be, ugh. You too. That is tea. That is tea.

[00:48:49] So, while I receive that, I just also want you to, you know, it's always going to be. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yes. The crowd's like, whoa, diva. Whoa, whoa, whoa. Okay. No, you're absolutely right. And like, there's more coming. Yeah. Because you're not going to play in my face. Now, y'all, I want y'all to, okay, you want to go to a different deck? They said pull out the deck that you actually, not the snooze button, child, I actually want to use a different deck.

[00:49:19] I want to use this feline mystique deck, actually. I pulled it out because it's pride month. And also, you know, the girls be pussy all the time. Okay, the dogs be pussy. So, I was like, let me pull out the little feline mystique. Okay, a little something different. Um, because why not? This is a deck that a friend of mine, Jennifer So Dean, made. Um, and I just got it like a couple months ago, but it gives like a, like, where are you checking in from? Like your energy, chaotic, neutral, chaotic, you know what I'm saying? Chaotic, positive, positive. Like,

[00:49:49] and just thinking about how to just channel this energy as we are going throughout the month of June. So, let us see what the tea is for the month of June. For the girlies out here, I love a good audible moment. Like, actually, we're going to do what I picked up. Cause I did pick this deck up for a reason earlier today. And I was about to just use mine, but I was like, no, go with your gut. What is our message for the month of June? Vivas. Thank you. See, I knew it.

[00:50:18] Our message is mystique, not mystique. Some is Madison. Okay. But shout out to her. But I feel like as this mystique card is coming up, I want you to think about how you are your own brand of magic. Right. I want you to think about how you are connected to your emotions. And a lot of the times when I think of like the word mystique or someone care, cause like, it's so funny. Um, back in college,

[00:50:47] you have the Morehouse mystique. Okay. Yeah. It's like, Ooh, and I love, I love a Morehouse man. Okay. Hey, that's all. I'm screaming. So shout out to all my Morehouse friends out there. Yeah. It is. And it's like, if you know a Morehouse man or somebody that went to Morehouse, period, point, blank, it's a certain vibe. I'm sorry. Every, it's a certain vibe.

[00:51:16] And when people find out that you went there, they're like, gag. And I'm like, so what are you saying? What are you trying to say? Cause they be calling us hoes. They'd be calling us all this and this and that. But at the same time we are, we be moving. I mean, I mean, yeah, I never said I wasn't, I never said I wasn't, but I mean, I do what I do. Okay. And I move how I move. Okay. Mama has motion. All right. Get with the program.

[00:51:41] And the mystique energy is really about you knowing that you have that energy to you too. And the way that it comes across is by the way that you show up is by the way that you actually actualize the fullness of you. Now, back in the day, especially when I was in college, it was like that energy was very like, Oh, you know, I feel like I have to move a certain type of way because this is, and it's like, no,

[00:52:09] like you move in your authenticity and things move for you. When you show up as you think about times where you have been the most vulnerable, honest, authentic version of you with someone else. And it completely shifts the dynamic of the relationship and the understanding of the connection. That mystique is powerful because it's like, you always wait for the right time. You know what I'm saying? Like share the things,

[00:52:38] but there's also a way that you carry yourself. That's very, what? Go ahead. Say it. I'm about to say like, not even nothing, but even as a child, when I used to watch X-Men, one of my favorite X-Men was mystique. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Shout out to all the X-Men girlies out there. I was going to say, she was, I was about to say, because, uh, wasn't she purple, black and red, kind of like type? Yeah. I remember playing a little X-Men game on my little Sega Genesis back in the day. That's the only reason why I know it was fun. She wasn't a good,

[00:53:08] like she wasn't on the X-Men team. She was like, you know, one of the other mutants, but she was always one of the other mutants that I always, I always, was it? Yeah. Something felt something. Yeah. Because I think we all have that like, uh, homosexual experience where it's like seeing certain women in video games or like cartoons. Tomb Raider. Yes. Tomb Raider for me. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

[00:53:37] I definitely understand what you mean. Cause I'm very much, uh, video game quoted like Michelle Chang, Julia Chang. Okay. Nina Williams, very tech in. Okay. Or a little Chun-Li. Cami was my girl. Shout out to. Wait, Chun-Li that's in Mortal Kombat. Is that? No baby. That's Street Fighter. Street Fighter, baby. Okay. Street Fighter. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Okay. Yeah. Yes. Yes. My Jade girlies out there. My Melina girlies.

[00:54:07] And also Tanya. We don't forget Tanya around here. Um, but anyway, we grow up feeling that connection to like these powerful women. You know what I'm saying? And, and it's like, if you think about it, their aura, their riz, as the kids would say, is what draws us to them. So the mystique card shows up and the breed is the American curl. It says chaotic neutral is the alignment. The effervescent energy of mystique takes on myriads of forms.

[00:54:35] A curl of the lips are annoying wink hits and understanding of the numinous, a subtle field shrouded in secrets and riddled with intrigue. So it says when this materializes, you're being beckoned to embrace the questions that hover suspended in thought. It may feel mad not to know, but as a Cheshire cat, why, as we said, we're all mad here in the not knowing imagination abounds.

[00:55:01] This card invites you to celebrate the madness by not taking things too seriously. Ultimately, not all answers are meant to be revealed. Some secrets are better savored. So this is a season of, like it says, don't take things, like things are serious. And I think that that is also not to get all political, but I'm going to be like, that is what we are societally being fed to feel.

[00:55:30] Because in that chaos, there is control from that vantage point. But it's like, if it is us being able to mobilize and operate in a way that like we support one another, and move with that power, that is what frazzles all that shit. So it's really about us understanding like, yes, I am not bypassing the fact that jobs, unemployment is up like crazy.

[00:55:56] Certain rights are being taken away right underneath our nose, not ignoring that in any way, shape or form. However, this is the time of understanding that like that joy that they are stealing from us, that things are stealing from us, is what is being trying, you know, trying to be created in this energy right now. And it's like, that's why Pride Month is so important to me now, I think like later on down the road, because it's like,

[00:56:23] we just deserve to feel these opportunities to feel love, and these opportunities to just like have joy, and have peace. And like, there's a bunch of serious shit going on in the world. So like when you can have a moment to just have some levity, have some fun, bring some whimsy back, you see this big whimsy movement that's been happening across social media, everything, this is how we allow ourselves to enjoy this season that we are in. And I also want to point out that it says chaotic neutral. It's okay to be chaotic.

[00:56:53] A lot of people have a very negative connotation around that feeling of like chaos, or like, I will, I will proudly say that I'm part of team tornado. Okay. I only know how to move in chaos. Thank you. Okay. It's my middle name. Actually, it's my second middle name. Okay. Gary DeAndre chaos. Okay. Listen, get into it. Um, but it's also just like the chaos makes for great stories and like, life is made to be lived, So I'm a live it. Okay.

[00:57:23] I'm a live it within the confines. Cause like, listen, no more, no more jail time. Okay. No more arrests. Okay. I rebuke that. Okay. Okay. No more that. No more arrests. Okay. We listen to me. Girl, I'm putting you on a pit girl. I'm putting you on a pit this summer. Okay. Girl, because girl. Okay. Yeah. You know what? And I will take my little pink slip and I'm going to put it to my chest, like a little scarlet letter girl. So that way I do not forget that I'm on a pit right now and I need to be moving, uh, proactively and positively.

[00:57:53] Cause we don't need no drama. No more drama in my life. Okay. I don't want to hurt again. Okay. So. Okay. No. Okay. That's when Mary used to rock them wigs, but okay, go ahead. Okay. No, you're fine. Oh my God. Speaking of, I'm going to tell this story and I hope that she lasted off. Um, so you talk about Mary Jane Blige once upon a time. I got long ago. I wasn't how I'm sorry. I didn't do that. Um,

[00:58:23] and I'm a minute. Okay. Okay. I'm a minute. And I was killing it. Diva. Chaotic neutral. We're giving. So once upon a time, my Twitter handle, fresh lettuce, what was it? Tasty. Flour. Tortilla. Tortilla. You saw that interview where like, she, she hates it and does it like, it's like Mary. That's what puts you, baby.

[00:58:52] That's what puts you out here in front of the kids. Okay. Cause we was bopping no more drama, but like that made you real. So speaking of good old Mary, uh, Gary J. Blige used to be one of my Twitter handles at one point, because you know, I'm insane. I love a good Gary Bradshaw moment. You know, when I be in my little writer bag. Okay. Gary J. Blige, you know what I'm saying? I'm being my little mood or whatever. So maybe like two weeks ago, um, one of my girlfriends,

[00:59:20] one of my client girlfriends reached out to me and she is telling me she's going to like the doctor, like if it's appointment for something, she need to get fixed. And, uh, miss mom is at the desk named Gary or whatever. And let's just say miss Gary got attitude. I was like evil twin Gary. Anyway, evil twin Gary is giving her the blues or whatever. And she was like, can I talk to, you know, your people? And, um, let's just say that miss, uh, Gary J.

[00:59:48] Miss Gary over there was like, I thought that you can't. And she was like, well, I don't know who you are, but you are not Gary J. Blige. So I need to talk to your manager. I was like, not you ate that. Not you ate that. I have to tell you the rest of that story, but, uh, offline, but let's just say that Gary J. Blige is alive and well. Okay. Listen, I got many moods. You got many moods. Embrace it diva.

[01:00:18] All right. There's Gary J. Blige, Gary Bradshaw. Okay. Uh, father cosmos. Okay. Papa Luna. Listen, captain planet. All right. Okay. Listen, Gary Potter. If you really want to get into it, like, okay. I feel many alter egos. She's, she's a multifaceted diva. All right. So how are you embracing your multifacetedness over the month of June and letting these girls have it?

[01:00:47] Like throw an accent on, you know what I'm saying? Put a little titty with a little sticker on it or whatever out, like live your life, girl. Like we only get one. So if you don't learn anything from this, know that like we are embracing free the nipple. Do it big mama. As Natalie Nunn would say. And that is my message. Well, listen, that if that wasn't a controlled chaos, I don't know what it is, but that also is what we call the purple pants. Premonitions.

[01:01:18] You come here for relatability. You come here for knowledge. You come here for key. You come here putting Gary on a pit when he needs to be put on one. And that's why we love y'all. Uh, this has been your purple pants. Premonitions for the month of June. I hope that you receive it. I hope that after this ends, you run it back and listen to it again, because sometimes there are some hidden gems that you need to catch. But as always, Gary, thank you for always showing up for us, our watchers and our listeners.

[01:01:47] We appreciate you. And we will see you in the month of July. Be well, be happy, be you. It's a purple pants. It's a purple pants. It's a purple pants podcast. You better get your headphones and listen up quick. It's a purple pants podcast. You better listen in public. Might make your stomach hurt. It's a purple pants podcast. You're trying to unwind. You better get that box wine. It's a purple pants podcast. You're trying to get your snack.

[01:02:15] You better hurry right back though. It's a purple pants. It's a purple pants.